I spent almost 3 years visualizing this distinct dream I had and bringing it to life. I brought it to complete life in November of 2018. I moved to my dream city all alone, got the apartment of my dreams that I was eyeing for years, got my savings up, ready to invest in a new future and career opportunities. I was happy and felt accomplished for going after my dreams.
But something felt odd after the first week I moved in, I felt myself slowly fall into depression. I went from living with my family in a city I know prepping to move to living all alone in a new and slightly unfamiliar city, I was on the complete opposite end of the country. It was around the holidays when I moved in so I bought a flight back home for the holidays so I wouldn’t feel this loneliness I was feeling.
I came back to at the very top of year to this new city and I was still feeling anxious and depressed. I was just kind of starting to feel like myself again when I was back home only to return back to loneliness in the new city. I had my on/off again ex, but going to him for my pain destroyed me.
I had extreme anxiety that I could no longer leave my house for work or anything. My savings waa so slowly running out and so I found myself facing eviction and now I have that on my record. I returned back home with huge amounts of debt (I’ve never been in debt), a huge ding on my record due to eviction, losing a lot of my belongings, my dream I held onto for so long, myself and my sanity. All in a 6 month span. How do I get to the root of my problem and find myself again. I’m scared to start completely over again with NOTHING.