I’m such a mess. I’ve pushed away everyone who truly loves me and have settled for a cheap substitute of the love I know I need.
Hey, I totally understand where you’re coming from. It’s really hard when you self sabotage and ruin any relationships you have with people who truly care about you. I wish I had some word of advice, but the one thing I can say is try not to be so hard on yourself. It isn’t the end, and most importantly, you’re not alone - I and many people have done the same thing before. Take care.