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@heartsupport I need you. I’m a victim of SA as a child, lost everything in 2020, went through leukemia, I’m a single dad of two teens they are why I’m still here. I’m in the dark water again in my mind and I’m having a hard time keeping my head above the surface. I’m also having a hard time battling my mind telling me to delete this
Please don’t delete your comment, friend. Your voice is so important, and this is a safe place to share exactly what you’ve just shared. I know personally how stressful it can be to share what makes us particularly vulnerable though… and it feels safer to remove any trace of it. I’ve myself learned to master the art of deleting messages whenever I’d feel like I shared too much to someone close to me. But truth be told: you are never wrong for sharing your story or sharing how you feel. What you are going through, what’s going on in your world, matters. Even if it might be hard for you to see it at times. Rest assured that it matters to us right here.
You have been through heavy, traumatic experiences, and I hear you when you say how difficult it is to push through at times. Sexual abuse especially shakes your very own sense of safety, and it can feel so very confusing to learn to navigate in this world when you keep on carrying the ghost of your traumas. I’m not a parent myself but was sexually abused as a child, then as a young adult, and it’s fair to say that most days it feels like these ghosts are entirely part of me, if not being me. It’s hard sometimes to dissociate the reality, the truth - that we are important and we belong in this world - from the pain we’ve suffered in the past. You very own body and mind have been hurt in ways no one should ever know in their life. It makes sense to struggle finding your way through it, through the aftermath, to find it difficult to catch your breath again at times. This is, my friend, the most human reaction one would have in these circumstances, and I hope you manage to be as kind as possible to your heart during those moments.
I believe in you and in your ability to hold on to the truth that this pain is not you. It is a part of your story, it is a reflection of the horror you’ve been through, it feels awfully overwhelming, but it is not a force that would ever condition what your future could look like nor who you can be. There is hope, my friend, even if it’s hard to see it for now. There is life and beauty in the smile of your children, in the smell of your favorite coffee, in the sensation of a warm sun on your skin at the end of a summer day… there is something worth it in all these subtle sources of beauty that life encompasses. You are not doomed to feel separated from all of it for the rest of your life, my friend. This is also for you. You deserve healing, support, the sensation of taking steps towards feeling peace within. You just took one massive here by opening up about your experience. Hopefully, this could be one between others for you, something that would ignite a spark to help you develop your own support system and include all the resources you would need to overcome this painful season.
There is more to this life than the pain and fear you’ve been carrying. YOU are so, so much more. Your children see it in you. I do too through your words here. 
@@HeartSupport thank you so much Micro, I needed that so much. The things you’ve said helped me a lot. I’m not going to lie the things you’ve said kept me out of my dark place in my head.