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@heartsupport This album has been such an incredible and extremely tough listen. This year especially has been what’s felt like more than I can handle mentally. I struggle so much with feeling like inside, I don’t want or deserve the help enough to let myself actually ask/accept it. I’ve always just felt like I don’t belong anywhere and that’s okay. Thank you for all you do 
I just wanted to reach out and let you know that you always deserve help. You’re not alone feeling this way. Sometimes our minds can be our biggest critics. It can keeps us mentally in that exhausted place because it keeps repeating to us that we are not worthy.
I am letting you know that you definitely are worthy. You will always be, and I do hope that in time when you feel more comfortable you can reach out for that deserved help. For now, here’s a reminder that you are loved and worthy
I just wanted to reach out and let you know that you always deserve help. You’re not alone feeling this way. Sometimes our minds can be our biggest critics. It can keeps us mentally in that exhausted place because it keeps repeating to us that we are not worthy.
I am letting you know that you definitely are worthy. You will always be, and I do hope that in time when you feel more comfortable you can reach out for that deserved help. For now, here’s a reminder that you are loved and worthy
It takes tremendous strength to share about these thoughts and feelings while feeling unworthy of sharing your voice. Thank you so much for allowing this part of you that somehow knows that it is okay to reach out, to open up in the comments here. This inner turmoil that you describe can feel so very conflicting. On one hand, you see how much you feel overwhelmed and how much life has been heavy for you recently, and somehow you know that there is only so much that someone can take without receiving some kind of support at some point. On the other hand, there is this inner dialogue and pressure that shouts a big “STOP” whenever you start considering reaching out… This voice can feel like such a strong call, having so much power on us once we hear it. It’s hard to feel like you know what would be right and healthy for you, and you would advise to any person you love that they are worthy of help! But at the same time it’s so difficult to apply those principles to ourselves, especially when it gets conflicted with how we feel about ourselves.
I’m surely standing with you and with all these feelings too. So many times I have prevented myself from asking for help because I would always have a reason - essentially I don’t deserve it, and also my problems are not important enough, or I don’t want to waste others time. It feels as if there needs to be a justification for doing something normal, if not for simply existing. For what it’s worth, something that helped me with this at times is to intentionally try to separate/distinguish these dialogues. A friend of mine was used to tell me “you don’t get to decide this for me” whenever I said I didn’t want to burden them with my problems. It was always a tough call to one reality: I’m worthy of help, regardless what is think about it. Which is reassuring, because it’s about trying to focus on facts rather than interpretations. It’s challenging to wrap our head around that when we feel undeserving, but stepping away as much as we can from those feelings when they are not serving us, is a repeated practice that can truly help over time. You don’t have to feel worthy of support in order to ask for it. And somehow, there is something so very powerful when you do something that you know is right and even though you feel the opposite way. You extend your comfort zone that way, you gain experiences that show you that these thoughts you have about yourself can be reconsidered. At the opposite, listening to it and preventing ourselves from getting the help we need, becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy and somehow a vicious cycle too. You can break that cycle, my friend. I believe in you.