Today has been a tough one. I feel like every time I take 1 step forward, I take 27 backwards. I stay hopeful and I continue on the path that I believe will lead me to where I want to be. I just lose so much motivation sometimes. I freeze. I get trapped in my own head and don’t get anything done. I just lost 12 hours. Hours that could have been used to get me further in my career… further in my life… SOMETHING.
Today I froze for unknown reasons (anxiety, maybe exhaustion, maybe confusion as to where to start my tasks), but also for known: I’ve been thinking all day about how I could let certain relationships go so far down the drain. It’s so difficult to decide certain things:
-Am I being dramatic or is this a logical reaction to this situation?
-Was I in the right to pick a fight or should I have let this one go?
-Is this a valid gut feeling or is my anxiety making me paranoid?
-Am I just speaking my truth or am I being overbearing and exhausting to others?
I usually wait it out and let these spiraling though storms pass. Then with a clear head, I decide how I feel. Today, that wasn’t so easy. Some days it isn’t. I guess today I’m not here so much to look for advice (always welcome though), but rather just to vent.
If you have any tips or tricks on speeding up these thought storms, please do advise. I read quotes and tried distractions today… but was not very motivated to try much.