Lol my bros were gonna answer this bc my brain is kinda all over the place rn and it’s hard to absorb things without the sensory overload, but these posts kinda warmed my heart so I’mma try to answer them too.
@Mystrose in all honesty we are a walking time bomb sometimes, at least Xaii is. He’s terrified constantly, as always, because he doesn’t tell any of us what’s wrong half the time, but I’m starting to get him to open up to me! We are starting to wonder if he counts as a protector headmate, because he always deals with the bad stuff, but he shouldn’t. Anyways! I think we are all struggling, that’s why we’re here after all XD
We understand the coping and going through it all over again situation and dialoug stuff. Xaii does this all the time, while we just wanna chill and hangout. He does this pretty much every hour of every day if he doesn’t have anyone to distract him enough. I hope it gets better for you, I had no idea it was capable of happening less and less, we are just starting to assume there is no cure except hiding from the world.
What sucks for us is we have alot of facts to validate the fear, so it’s the matter of “what do we do to prevent it from happening again or protect ourselves” and then Xaii panics ._. (we just zoned out for a good 5mins worrying about something stupid.)
I’m sorry you are unsure, we feel that way all the time too. Do you get that thing where when you’re around people that make you happy you feel so much better until they’re going again? This happens to us alot, which is why we have to always stick together.
Hiii!!! Yea, we’ve… Been really worried about you
We are really glad to hear your sisters aren’t there, and I hope managing it is going okay, we aren’t too good at that heh!
X: One thing I’ve noticed is that people think when they post things that people will just forget about them and stop caring just because they haven’t posted in a while or just aren’t there. Truth is none of you can be forgotten. We will still think about you and wonder how you are, no one can just forget you. Your existence and impact in someone’s life can’t just vanish that easily.
I’m very glad you have had a break from those horribly toxic people, I hope the light in your life can be restored, even if it is for a bit.
@Paladine omg 10 days?! Omg I’m so proud of you!!! (˘︶˘).｡* idk what your band thing is but that’s awesome! Just remember that it’s a part of recovery, even if you relapse that doesn’t mean anything bad, it’s expected to happen. That’s what most people don’t understand about depression and other mental issues. I had a friend a few years ago who compared me to a drug addict because I’d tell her how I was getting better and every now and then would relapse and get better again. Each time it becoming more and more spaced for each time I’d relapse. She didn’t understand that, some people just don’t get it because they don’t understand it or it’s just too emotional for them to go through trying to understand, so I just wanted to remind you that it doesn’t mean you won’t get better, because I know I would have appreciated that validation back then <3
I am here for you. You are heard and you are understood ^~^
Hi! I’m glad you’re doing better, bad stuff can be scary, and it can make our emotions go haywire and we do things we don’t really want for ourselves, it’ll be okay tho! Because it gets better
Keep taking those steps, you are never alone! ^~^
@SheetMetalHead I feel you on the tired part, I never get a break to rest because my family thinks resting equals being lazy. It’s good you’re finding a way to deal with it, and it’s awesome you were able to get past your checkpoint! I personally can’t do that, I have come to terms I may just not be ready for college because of my constant mental health issues, and I will most likely fail because of my mental issues. Medicine seems to not help me either, so I have stopped. I want to be free from medicine for once, I’m just so tired of it. I would love to be able to finish and push thru my assignments like that but that’s usually Kio’s thing and everyone has been a jumbled mess in the head latley because of said issues. I am trying my best to keep everything in order and we are all trying to help eachother out in taking care of ourselves with our own personal issues.
Keep up the work m8! You can pass that shit!
@Lisalovesfeathers hey, I’m glad to warm people’s day along with mine, I really am worrying about people latley tho, not just here but work and school and humanity in general. I care about people too fucking much and it drives me insane. I’ve noticed that no one gets a break, and I know how detramentally that can affect mental health, which is why I’m worried for everyone. I hate seeing it man. I hate seeing people having to suffer with the same issues or just life in general. If there was just a way to make it better uk? Like everyone is under stress all at once, and what I’ve noticed from that over the years is that it really makes you go insane. Like under too much stress, you mentally really start thinking or doing shit you wouldn’t normally do, and that’s what worries me, because I’m seeing so many people around me latley go through that. My boss is exaughsted because there isn’t enough people working there, my coworkers are exaughsted because they have to work the said over hours because of there not being enough people. People not taking said jobs seriously. At school my teacher had to deal with almost being likely murdered in an Uber on her way to school (I can give this man’s information if needed I would love to see him rot in prison if he’s gonna choose to live the rest of his life like that. But there’s a whole rabbit hole with him too because the whole reason he went crazy is because of stress, and no one is doing anything for these people.) students being overworked with no extra credit or pay or anything, my friend is sick to the point where she had to stay home because she was coughing so much she threw up, my other friend is giving up on school like me, my other friend dealing with the stalker, hearing the past stories of people in the military and how traumatizing it was for them, my sister making dumb decisions while being pregnant and getting sick which made me panic for her and the baby for a good bit, worried about my own shit, I’m, pretty much worried about everything really lol. The things I’ve seen humanity can be capable of gives me this fear I guess. In the past I thought maybe it would teach me to realize the worlds reality and accept that it will never change, but all it really made me do is fear the world more and at the same time want to fix it. Desperately trying to find a way to help people while slowly feeling more and more that there is no hope for humanity and retreating into my own created world. Still, I’m glad I could make your day, because it’s every little step that counts.
@Ashwell Being numb isn’t fun, we were numb once and it’s a sort of terrifying experience. Do you know why you feel numb today compared to yesterday? And if you could go anywhere you wanted out of the water where would it be? Just think about it and give yourself some times to relax. Have you been eating something differently latley? Or taking a new medication? If not you could talk to your therapist about it if you have one, or a psychiatrist. I’m sorry that pain is the only answer for you, I wish I could give you a hug, I’m glad you’re doing better though ^~^
@Micro I’m really glad I joined this community, funny story, I joined because Kitboga called me out during one of his streams and told me about you guys. They are a very loving community and his videos are SO FUCKING HIALRIOUS XD
What’s funny is my username tho , I’m not saying it but if you ever knew my username in the discord server last yr that’s what it was in the stream so when he called me out it almost sounded like a joke
But yea he’s an amazing person and really funny! I honestly don’t think I would’ve never heard about your community if it wasn’t for him.
Idk what life is like for you to feel like that right now but I offer my hand if you ever want to talk about it
I get the sensory overload, it’s way too much for me, so I always gotta switch out or talk it out with someone, which doesn’t always really do anything. And ocean trip sounds AWESOME! I love the ocean ecspecially when it’s clear and gets really deep and the creatures get bigger and scarier the farther you go down ( ╹▽╹ ) tho that’s not really in this world that I’m talking about, more so my innerworld you see that stuff and it’s really freaky ( °^°)
You should try sitting under water at the bottom and looking at the sky, I love doing that, it’s so quiet and calming so no distractions, and you touch your hand up to the light and breach the surface and feel all the chaos, bring you hand back under and it’s all quiet and safe again. I’m glad you’re taking some time for yourself, go for it! :3
We are very looking forward to SWAT, hopefully stability will be back on track by the time the team starts up again. My headmates really look forward to it as well and want to introduce themselves since they never get to be open about existing to other people than anyone in the plural community and me. We really look forward to interacting with the outside world in any way, just being known is enough to reassure us. I know half of us want our own body half the time because we make the other look stupid (looking at you Niko ( °^°) ) and we just don’t like seeing a body we don’t actually have.
We will be continuing trying to work with all this daily chaos. As well as accepting the things we may not be able to fix, and trying to live with it.
We are always here to listen, and talk too!- but we are shy .____.
Lol this was a long post, took a few hours but that’s okay lmao, it’s better than worrying about stuff. Always noticed that once I have someone to talk to or have fun with I’m immediatly happy and stop worrying for however long until they leave or bring up a trigger. Ofc, that’s probably a result from past seperation trauma, but idk how else to feel happy sometimes. And attachments and art are all I know when it comes to happiness which, I, probabllyyyyyy need to tell a therapist about??? Tho they don’t see that side of me because I am always actively trying to avoid people for reasons like this.
Anyways have a nice night everyone! We are headed to bed to fail another test tommrrow ._.