I just need to get this off my chest.
A few days ago, I was completely done with the world. I was breaking down, getting panic attacks… the whole program. I relapsed and started cutting again. I felt completely terrible, like the last piece of shit. I still don’t feel good in any way, but I was able to calm the storm in my head. But in that moment, I almost slit my wrist do end it all. I was so close to doing it, but was able to stop myself in the last second. Since that moment, I just felt lost. I didn’t - and still really don’t - know what to do. I haven’t told anyone about it. I just don’t know what to feel anymore.
I’m sorry if this didn’t make any sense, but my mind is completely all over the place right now.