I am trying to get better

 With the help of some people I have realized a few things. It's not impossible to fix myself. But I still hope onto this little piece of knowledge. It'll be difficult. I'm so screwed that I have to get out of negative numbers and into larger digits. Digits, yes. Because I know I'll never hit double digits. So, I've began working on it. 
  It'll take a long time to get where I want to be. So I'm going to to try to hold out for that long. I'll try my damnedest. But for now, I need to I need to plan my escape from my current form. I need to plan as carefully as I can, because if I make ONE mistake....it's over. I won't be able to fix ANYTHING and everything will be the same.  
    So I'm going to think for a long while. As I have been. You know, measure twice cut once. Without the cutting, which is kind of the point. 

So those who’ve replied to my previous entry:Thank you.

Thanks for sharing @Amcgr434! I wish you the best as you continue down your journey of healing and self-restoration. It can be a long process, but it’s worth it in the end. You got this! :slight_smile: