I just realized how bad my eating habits really are. Over the past 3-4 months I’ve been eating less without realizing it. I’ve been throwing out my food more often and sometimes I just don’t eat at all. I didn’t notice how bad it was getting until I completely stopped being able to eat enough. The other night I ate 3 bites of dinner and couldn’t eat any more.
I’m just stunned I let it get so bad. I always thought I’d notice if I had an eating disorder but I guess that’s not the case. And now It’s really bad and I’m scared I won’t be able to fix it and it’s horrible. I want to be able to eat without feeling sick again. I have to force myself to eat just a bit more than I can stomach each night and I feel so sick all the time and every time I eat it makes me nauseous.
I made a schedule for when I eat each day so that I start being able to stomach more food. 3 meals, 3 snacks, each at a set time. I have alarms on my phone so I don’t forget to eat. Hopefully in a few months this is better and I don’t feel so sick all the time.