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I can relate to depression. To feel so alone when you have enough people around you… But not many people listen, really listen. And not many people really care.
My heartbreak comes from abandonment, firstly. From not feeling loved. Secondly, from existential fear and physically having to fight for my life. Thirdly, being a sensitive person, every love, every heartbreak has left its mark, without me being able to fully process it.
I am scarred. I am flawed. I am being judged, also by myself. And I try to live with that. But sometimes it just hurts so bad…
And nobody around me seems to care how I really feel.
I can feel Layne, through his words, his voice. He understands. I am so sorry he couldn’t overcome his addiction and his heartbreak over Demri…
Maybe he was too sensitive for this world.
Hello and thanks for opening up! It’s very hard to go through something and feel like nobody seems to care! I think part of that might be that everyone has their own “stuff” they are going through, and “taking on” any more from others is a thing they feel they cannot do at the time. So, although it’s very difficult to do, I try to assume positive intent and it seems to help me to some degree.
To your point about being a sensitive person, have you been able to sorta “analyze” why the negative things impact you so much? Do the positive things provide just as strong a reaction, or does that side feel more muted? I wonder if pondering through some of that for a bit might help you process? For me, it was a combination of me analyzing some of those things within me, with the help of a therapist sort of just keeping me between the navigational beacons.
Be kind TO yourself, and be courageous FOR yourself.
I’m sorry you’re going through this friend. I understand feeling alone even when you’re surrounded by people, it’s a different kind of isolation, it feels worse than actually not having people, it’s like being in a room full of people but no one at all at the same time. Abandonment, the feeling of not being loved is so painful and draining, especially when compounded by physical and emotional battles you went through. Please know that the scars you carry are a testament to your character to your strength friend, you shouldn’t be ashamed of them. I want you to know that your feelings are valid, you deserve to be heard. Layne’s music is powerful and it’s obvious from your post that his words resonate with you. Maybe, like you said, he was too sensitive for this world—a world that often feels too harsh for those who feel deeply. Be kind to yourself friend, take things one day and one step at a time.
@@HeartSupport thank you for your reaction.
I do think the negative emotions weigh heavier on me than the positive ones, somehow.
I can’t always access my positive emotions, while the negative thoughts and emotions seem to be more at the surface for me.
Love is often being overshadowed by grief.
I don’t really understand why.
Why isn’t it the other way around?
Maybe because I had my fair share of heartbreak, and not enough love to begin with. It just tips the scale I guess.
I’m tired of false positivity.
The true love I now experience is for my kids and my animals. The rest I don’t really believe in anymore.
Yeah I think it’s partially just human nature to have the negative stuff carry more weight. It’s unfortunate, but I feel like part of that is how humans have had to live/survive to get to this point. That said, I really think the first step is recognizing this, which you have already done!
What helps me is daily reminders about perspective. I know I have some heavy things to deal with, both currently and what has happened to me when I was younger. However, I also know how lucky I am to have all the good things I do have. There are people that are faced with unfathomably worse circumstances, so I try to remember that as much as I can. It’s easy on some days, and it’s very difficult on others. Just keep at it and enjoy your kids and animals!
