You know, I can relate so much to these questions.There have been a lot of people in my life, family, friends and relationships that have hurt me in ways I will never understand. I have been degraded, betrayed, lied to, manipulated and treated in ways that were so hurtful there were many times I fell into a very dark place.
I questions myself and my worth. I wondered if I deserved it.
But you know what? Yes, it hurts and it seriously sucks. But you deserve so much more. You are so much more important and valued than this person has shown you. Your feelings are valid. I’m sorry that they hurt you so badly.
There will be times in our life where we just wont be able to understand why some people do things. And there will be times where we will wish that people would apologize and recognize their hurtful ways and they don’t. I’ve been there so many times. But that doesn’t take away from your worth as a person.
It takes time to heal from the hurt people cast upon us. And that’s okay. Just remember to try not to let it consume you whole. Fight! Please keep fighting.Talk to someone if you need to. A friend. A therapist. A pastor…or just keep sharing here on the wall with us and let us offer you words of encouragement.
I know it may not feel like it right now, but things can get better my friend. Just surround yourself with people that uplift you, encourage you and bring you up. Surround yourself with healthy people and things that make you happy. Do things that you enjoy, whatever that may be. Focus on those things. In time, it will heal. And better people will come along.
Right now it hurts, but in the end we grow stronger from our hardships. We learn what we need from relationships. We learn where we need to work on ourselves, and later our new relationships will be better for it.
I hope that you are able to find healing and comfort. Much love to you