Thank you so so much to everyone that has helped me through this whole thing. All of you that hearted, and all of you that responded. I appreciate you all so much. Here’s to new (and admittedly very scary) beginnings. Stay strong and take care
Update: My family and I are on good terms, and I’ve moved. It’s so incredibly scary. I don’t know what anything is about in an entire new state and I have so much more people I’m meeting and I’m so overwhelmed. I wish I could go back but it’s too soon and I need to start doing my own things. I’m trying to trust my boyfriend when he says this is a great family. It’s just too much for me.
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Not in New York yet, but I moved away from my family successfully without them knowing, with my bf’s parents temporarily…I feel sick to my stomach.
I sent a letter to my mom online and blocked everyone…but I was too late on blocking my brother, said something along the lines of “Atleast think of mom first” before I deleted the application. I feel literally ill, I hate feeling sick because of my fear of vomiting.
I had so many breakdowns when I was quietly moving my stuff out, I left a bit of mess behind too and I feel really bad about it.
It’s of no suprise that they went as far as getting their boss to try and call my bf’s mom…idk how to feel…my brother sent a long message too asking out of “worry and concern”…No way am I speaking to him I know how they get. I really didn’t want to get his family roped into this mess but they helped a ton. I cried for my mom so much because I love her and hoped my brother would eventually understand but I know how they are. I know they’ll suffer financially but this is something I needed to do for myself.
Idk how to stop feeling sick, idk how to feel, my body is in shock and afraid they’ll drive 30 mins to get here and knock on the door. I atleast left, I did the big thing…now I feel absolutely terrible, how do I process all of this…take care everyone.