First off, I’m not even sure why I’m doing this, honestly typing this out now I feel like I’m just doing this for attention and that I should delete this and forget this site. But maybe this can help, and who knows maybe I can start helping people again.
I think I need help.
I don’t know if anyone else has felt this way, but whatever kind of person I am, the life I’ve had so far, I feel like some kind of tragic story character. Rather than an actual human being with control over his life. I swear I should’ve died multiple times now, yet here I am, still standing. Meanwhile everyone around me just seems to be withering away. I’ve lost too many people as it is. I don’t know how much longer I can go before I become someone or something I hate.