I feel dumb and worthless. One of my all-time favorite bands called Convictions is in town tonight and I wanted to go so bad and at the same time I didn’t want to go (if that even makes sense?). They’re also playing at a venue I’ve never been to. I didn’t end up getting tickets online. The show started at 7pm with local bands before Earth Groans and Convictions would hit the stage. So, I ended up going and at the time it was an hour after the show started and since online said you could buy tickets at the door. Got to the parking garage and parked. Sat there for a couple minutes and left to go back home.
I just feel like complete garbage and I already know I am going to regret it. I’m not sure if it’s my anxiety controlling me, the fact I left after the show started (which I always get there before the show starts), or it’s the fact it’s a new venue I’ve never been to before, or maybe it’s because another big band Clutch is also in town at a venue down the street from Convictions is playing.
Am I the only one that feels this way or have done this before? It just sucks. Anxiety sucks.