Last night after 6 years sober i relapsed. Im a piece of shit, but i couldnt take the stress. It was there so i just did it, took 3 percs crushed em up and snorted away, drown myself with some vodka on top of that. Why why did i do this after 6 years and cleaning myself up… no one around me wants to talk to me or listen to me everyone acts like im a second fiddle. My problems dont fucking matter. Im tired.
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im really sorry to hear about your situation!
there’s no need to feel shame or regret about relapsing after being sober for a long time. in fact it’s rather common to have a relapse whilst you try to recover from addiction.
whilst you were sober, were you in touch with a doctor or specialist? if not i would suggest you find one. if there’s a helpline for those with the same situation as you in your country you should also contact it.
for your information here are some of them:
- in the UK: FRANK, 0300 123 66 00
- in the US: SAMHSA,1-800-662-HELP (4357)
take care!
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we all relapse, friend. everyone has addictions of one kind or another. we all make mistakes and bad choices sometimes. and you most certainly have NOT failed EVERYONE around you! I can GUARANTEE that! i’ve done far worse than you’ve done and like a dog returning to its own vomit, often i revert to the same behaviour or speech. DON’T FEEL GUILTY OR ASHAMED. YOU ARE HUMAN LIKE US ALL, MATE x
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6 years sober is alot of days, so many many days that was down to you.
1 bad day or 1 mistake does not define you.
Hang in there, reach out if you need it.
Hugs x
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