Ever since I was a kid, I always had people try to tell what to do. Like my parents telling me to go to church , my sister telling what music should I listen too, my friends telling how to talk to girl and all my bands mate try tell how be a good musician. Never felt I could ever be myself or live my life freely.
My co worker at job is always telling what to do, like that my too old to be skateboarding, I spend too much money and that I need to grow up. My Boss is always making me do bitch work like clean glass, like I’m worthless and useless. I get paid shit money and I feel I’m to there eye another slave. Every job had I felt I was a slave that no right and treat I’m damn fool.
It like teacher in middle, they if I follow there stupid rules that I would be happy. School system all do is set for people to fail, say you can be what you want to be and all that bullshit. They don’t teach you how to be happy and find what right for you.
Everyday I just I’m nothing, honestly I don’t can think for myself. It gotten were I want to hurt and just explode. Sometimes I think of suicide ( which try avoid.) in someway I’m just an moron that too dumb for thing beside cleaning windows.