My last post I mentioned that found two people to jam with and they seem to be really cool people. However I feel shitty for two reason.
One: I know a guy at my work that does scream(co worker) and sound sick. It all before I met the drummer( band mate)so lately I was edging him to try out for my project. I mentioned to my drummer, he ask if was vaccinated. I gave a bad answer cuase told the drummer( band mates) about screamer (co worker) politics. Then drummer ( new band mate) I will not jam with him because of that. It put me really shitty situation cuase I want my co worker try out for the band , just lame this guy (drummer) because of his politics without getting to know him.
Two: thier that hip me to join too, however we haven’t be able to meet up. I believe might disability ( which I’m not judging him, cuase I’m disabled too). He live parent they like controlling his life in unhealthy way. Without meeting us, his parents assume that I do hard drugs and I’m bad person. I felt also lead him on, I try pick him or try to find jam space near him and I even try FaceTime ( but his mother deleted the chat. I kinda tell him that band was not going, cuase did not want to hurt his feelings.
Fuck I feel such a peice of shit. No matter how hard try fucking fair, I just fucking cunt.