So I really hate myself. I feel like such a worthless person. I make everyone disappointed or angry. It really hurts that I make my parents feel bad because they’ve done so much for me, but I know I don’t deserve any of that. I most likely deserve everything bad that happens to me, because I do so many mistakes. Everything I do is wrong and I’m tired of that, I’m so tired of feeling like I’m not good enough. Everything just hurts so much. I feel like I’m just being stupid for feeling like this because there’s other people that have gone through worse things than I have. I probably sound so dumb typing all of this but i can’t speak about my problems with anyone because they don’t understand what I feel.
I’m just tired of feeling down all the time but I’ve tried all I could to make myself happy like find something to do like painting and things like that, but it’s like everything I do is just a temporary fix to my problems. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety and I went to a therapist and psychiatrist. They put me on medication to try and help my anxiety and it helped but for a while. My depression is coming back and Im slowly being consumed by it.