As someone who’s still in school and has struggled with this for several years now, I feel anxious about everything and nobody really wants me there.
Whenever I bring up something important (positive or negative), it just always seems to be skipped over in conversation and I feel like nobody cares about what I have to say. I feel too selfish for having these thoughts because my friends probably feel the same way, but it happens so often and I just feel that nobody cares about me or my problems, even when at least make an effort to help them.
I feel like I’m becoming more to handle every day and that I don’t deserve to be here. I’ve been quitting everything and shutting myself out because of my fear of rejection. I mess up everything I do and I don’t want to be told I’m a burden when I already know. My weight has been increasing and I’ve had worse mood swings by the month. At this point I feel I have no real friends because they’ve all gone their different ways, and my parents don’t like that I’m becoming a recluse- it’s like I’ve let them down, too, and they don’t want anything to do with me.
For the first time in my life, I feel truly alone.
I have these feelings 24/7 playing in my head, and it’s become too much for me. I can’t find a way out. I’m scared for what I might be doing to myself in a couple weeks.