Hope today will be a good one to you.
As said on your other post, it’s good to see you.
With all that corona-stuff, circumstances for everyone are quite difficult and weird. I’m sorry that no one tried to contact you though. It’s absolutely natural to expect to be in touch with those who are part of your life, even if you don’t see them directly. I’ve been there too. Not now, but at different moments in my life. I was used to be the one who starts conversations too, with my beloved ones. It’s frustrating sometimes, and exhausting. It makes you doubt about the fact that others might be caring about you or not, or you can even start to question who you are…
On the other side, I think that when we are struggling we naturally expect from others to reach out to us. We expect more from those we love. Sometimes it’s not really fair though. It depends on the quality of our relationships, the personality/habits of everyone, current circumstances… It’s a difficult balance to find between our own expectations and what others can actually give to us. It’s often a mix between all of this.
But one thing is sure: you deserve to be shown that you are loved and cared for. Maybe not through the way you expect it, but still. For example, sometimes actions are more significant than words, even if they’re less frequent. Anyway, it’s not about you being interesting enough or not. That is 100% sure. I understand that it’s tempting for you to start to think that you are the problem. But you’re not.
Every relationship needs some mutual adjustments sometimes. And it goes along with a respectful and honest communication. You have the right to feel how you feel. You have the right to let your friends know about it and see how you can improve that altogether, if that’s something you’d be willing to try. You know, sometimes we just forget to reach out to those we love just because we’re focused on other things, daily life… it happened to me many times, even though I’m willing to show the people I love that I care about them. On the other side, if your friends are ignoring you intentionally, then it’s not really honest and you deserve better than this. It would be their loss.
Stay safe too. It’s a bit stressful to be asked to stay at home and see your habits changing all at once. But you’re gonna be okay.