Sept 31 2019 will be a mouth of being sober from self harm, but I been feeling my anxiety has gotten bad again. I have gotten a second job which is great , but I been working longer days, where for example I work from 7am to 2pm, then went to my other job from 3pm to 11pm. I been using my coping skill, today I felt very close of self harm, but I put my head in a cold shower and been holding ice cubes. But it still a very strong habit to break and ti been a battle. I hoping there be a day that never self harm or act impulse where i hurt people. I been trying everything in my power to stop my impuses.
You are not alone. The struggle is daily but gets better. I had that thought today in the middle of a terrible anxiety attack. I hope you can find time for self-care, even if it’s something small here or there. It helped me to look at my old scars and remember that I don’t want to be that person anymore. I hope that there is something out there that can give you relief.
The struggle is real.
Hang in there friend
Feeling those impulses is going to happen. Just think of the strength you have deep within to overcome those impulses and embrace the feeling that you overcame it.