I know I’m not supposed to do it. I am supposed to overcome. Endure. Persevere. Take a lickin’ and keep on tickin. Fall down and get up again.
There is so much shame in giving up.
My world is tiny. Isolated. Empty. Bitter. Broken. Needy. No kids. No job. No dream.
I was traumatized last summer. I don’t have the desire to recover. I have chosen to lie down and let it take me.
So much shame. Hopeless. Worthless. Meaningless. I cannot love.
I am already dead inside. I simply will be finishing the job.
Hey there,
I’m sorry you are feeling this way right now. It sucks to have the thoughts that you described.
You mention that you don’t have the desire to recover but i can see that, that isn’t the truth. You taking the time to post and reach out shows that you want to do what it takes to recover. Take each day/moment one step at a time, wake up tomorrow and think about the options that are avaliable in the world to help you recover from what is getting you down.
HeartSupport has a partnership with betterhelp to get you 7 days of free counseling, if you need to talk to someone you can go to https://www.betterhelp.com/heartsupport and talk to a licensed professional.
Hope this helps,
Yummerz
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