Today I had a great day at work. Was screaming songs in my car and was just happy.
Then I get home and my dad is annoyed.
Since my dad got sick I wished that my parents would just get a divorce because at times my dad is so bad.
I hate having to listen to him slam doors and yell and be mad. I hate him threatening to hit our family dog when she doesn’t get out of the way or when she barks.
I absolutely fucking hate it.
It makes me hate myself.
When this happens I hide if I can. I sit and wait for it to be over.
So now I’m sitting in the corner of my room, crying, trying not to self harm.
I’m so sorry to hear that. Can’t you move out? it can be really stressful and you don’t deserve this.
I’ll pray for you, always remember feelings do pass
I can kind of relate as my dad gets upset pretty easily, but he’s still the closest person to me and I love him unconditionally. As we are speaking, in fact, he’s kinda annoying me lol. I was practicing screaming in the car today too.
I’m in his house for the summer till I move to a new apt and finish school, but since i first moved out at 18 I’ve just had less f***s to give and usually ignoring him or just being normal works. Less stressful on me to not get mad back. Hope it’s a possibility for you too. Talking people down is a great technique in general, too. We use it as police officers; they raise their voice, we talk calmly and usually calms them down too.
Oh, Lyss. I’m so sorry.
I love you so much friend and I hate that you always have to be thrown into these maddening situations. I know things have been really rough lately. I’m sending you the biggest hug right now.
I hope the situation passed quickly and you are getting some rest now. As it’s very late.
I’m only a message away. Always.