I hear you. I wish you never had to go through all of this. Wish you didn’t have to deal with such dark thoughts right now.
I hope you don’t mind, but I remember that you shared on the SW already, so I read the messages you posted before. You’ve been hurting for such a long time… But you didn’t talk about what is causing you that pain. You mentioned flashbacks once, the awful healthcare services where you live. But nothing more. And I don’t want to assume anything, but I guess you’ve been through some very difficult things in your life.
Friend, I’d like to encourage you to talk to us. The support wall is a safe place to share about what happened to you, also about what’s going on right now. We are willing to listen and support you as much as we can, to help and look after resources that might be helpful to you. I can assure you that you don’t deserve to feel such intense pain. And life is not about feeling this endlessly. There is more to see, to live, to breathe.
Let’s help each other, friend. Let’s hold hands. You are not alone.
Please, stay safe. Give a try to the resources that @KittyKoyangi and @taylorpalmby mentioned.
I’m rooting for you.
I believe in you.
Hang in there.