I have resplase tonight
I flip out on my mom and scream in her face, saying fuck you, and made her cry. Two weeks ago I have abuse my self and tonight i have bit my arm. Im act like I was an 5 year old. I cant control my emoitions, my actons and my words. I try reading rewrite book, try CBS and try mediations. Im never going to get better, nothing is going to change and it never going get better. I learn to aspect what i am.
Im an abuse person.
I feel my only way to control the situation is to snap and mentally hurt someone. Its my way of defenting myself. I have of really hurting people. like breaking their face and hurting them. I hate of what I have become, Im became everything i have hated and there no going back. I lost my self respect and my morals. I dont if I can change