I wanted to start off i had a hiccup i wanted to celebrate 4/20 one last time but other than that i have decided to change my ways and seek God through the bible, this life my friends was the hardest battle ever fought, harder than the american revolution. But spiritual warfare, and wrong decisions.
However i found a new group of believers, a new church, a new people. Strongly urged to always read and people being involved of my life, i ditched workibg at ups and not i sort iphones its stress free honestly but i still work hard.
Man i look back at the past, and just honestly theres no more sorrow, because today this is where i want to be my friends. And honestly the peace and the freedom and the love ive finally found was through Jesus Christ knowing about, praying and asking for forgiveness was the first start of my journey, and i asked him to help me find a church and talked to a friend i made at ups the old job.
Ive felt like solomon in the bible in the sense of though trying to seek my own peace, in my story my friends i wanted to die i was on the verge of taking my life because i felt like nothing, no love, rejection from the people that only gave a damn about me. It hurt so bad that wound was so deep. Thats when i had lived with a pastor and his family for 3 years, and fell away and hung with old friends wrong people, depression came and it started with weed, then to experimenting drugs
Do not feel bad for me but have peace through my story. My relationships failed, the love of money, putting my heart on my sleeve because i wanted to fall in love, also failed. I sought after more things just to feel something to feel some type of way. And they have failed…
To find your own happiness through this world is quite meaningless… however there is still hope for us all and its through Acknowledging Jesus Christ what he died for us so that he gave us life, he died on the cross so that we may have life through him. And he raised from the dead conquering sin and death. He is lord, He is God, he is our future, hes life, the way to all things that are good, he is truth and through him we will find life.