i’m not sure how to start, I never tried to write how I feel or anything related to me so sorry if it’s a bit weird
my goals are to move to canada, be a great programmer and music artist, that’s what I want to be.
so I’m now 18 and I planned to finish university in my country which will take about 4 years and then move to canada as soon as I can.
my uncle who lives in canada, suggested that I should save up to 40K CAD to pay for tuition and then apply to canadian university, because that would be the easiest way to get there, not as professional, but as a student.
I agree, that sounds like a much better plan to get there as soon as possible instead learning here for 4 years, and then trying somehow to get there would take much longer than just saving for 2 years and getting enough for tution.
but the issue is, I hate talking with people, and i have to find a job, i have no idea how to do that.
when i was in school i never really had to talk with anyone, i just practiced to exams and listened to the teachers in class and that’s about it, In the last 4 or 5 years i never really had friends i can talk with, i just felt like i don’t belong anywhere and i’m just a waste of time and i’m just an annoying person, therefore I isolated myself from everyone and never really talked with anyone.
Now that i have to find a job to achive my goals, i can’t really do that because to get a job you have to talk with people and in the job you have to talk with people and i hate that, i’m also scared of doing something wrong in the work and disappoint the one who i work for/with and/or people i know.
either if i stay to learn here or go learn in canada, both paths require work, it’s just that learning in canada requires to talk with people on english, which i’m absolutly horrible at. i want to get as much time as possible to learn to speak english but i also want to get to canada as soon as possible, because i hate where i am right now