(Quick backstory: Glitzy was a cat that I’ve known and loved for over half of my life. She was like a sister or second mother to me and I know she felt the same. On July 24, 2018, she passed away… the night before, we suspect she had multiple strokes and I stayed up all night that night… me and my mom agreed that if she wasn’t better by about noon the next day, we would take her to the vet to be put down. I mean there was an option to get treatment but the blood tests and scans and the most likely surgery(s) would be too much to afford. She fought so hard to stay with us and by about noon the next day, she was still alive, but she wasn’t the same. We took her to the vet where she was euthanised and finally put at rest. I’ve always missed her so much ever since…) So this started yesterday. In English we were doing a thing where we had to analyze lyrics to songs we picked. So as an example, our teacher used a song with an obvious story and meaning (I’ll link it at the end if you want to know what that story was). So after the song plays I’m thinking about it, and because the song ends in death, my brain thought back to Glitzy… and those last words… “I’ll love you forever… Forever and always…”… just it was the exact thing I was telling her all night the night before she passed… I was telling her that no matter what happened, I would still love her, and that our love would last beyond death… it just brought me back to that night and I just couldn’t take it… I basically spent half of the next period crying… and then there’s today. I was just drawing, had a ton of inspiration, when the song just popped into my head. It’s even been hard for me to type this because I just break out into bits of crying… I just think back to that night before she died, being with her in the vets office, and just watching as she just stopped breathing… if there was anything I would have said it would be that I’ll love her forever, forever and always… I know that she knows and is at peace but it just feels like it wasn’t enough… it’s hard to believe it… idk I just miss her so much and I wish she were still with me, but at the same time not because death was inevitable… idk I just really miss her and stuff and that song just really reminded me of her. I’ll never forget you, Glitzy, and no matter what, I’ll always love you…
Link to lyric video of song: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=9xlwpf8u4aw
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