Sending plenty of hugs your way, friend. I’m so sorry you lost your little sister. There is something about losing a sibling that words cannot express, and it makes completely sense to feel as if your grief finds resonance through music at times. It can connect with so many subtle layers of emotions and experiences that we hold within.
Losing someone you grew up with and were meant to share most of your life with is a deep injustice. It’s not how things should be, and it brings up so many questions to those who are still present. I personally lost my brother a couple of years ago, which has shaken my world in many ways, and forced me to explore questions I never thought I would have to even consider. It’s not something we’re prepared for. Being left with a wall of silence can be overwhelmingly loud.
There is something about the bond we share with siblings that can’t be found anywhere else, and it is for sure a deep legacy but to learn to cultivate this bond differently, without their direct presence. I hope that, in your own grief, you make sure to remain patient with yourself, and allow yourself to feel everything you need. The tears are yet another manifestation of the love we have for them, one that goes beyond time and distance. And the smiles that are yet to come are also a beautiful way to honor their life, little by little. Thank you for sharing about you and her today. This is fundamental. <3