I am back because I been a mess lately specal at school
I been labeled a specal Ed kid with Emotional behavioral disturbance, witch rellay threy call it that am one of the bad kid at school,is the worst feeling ever as they treat me like crap and differently then ever else. I’m not a bad kid, am kid it’s Mental, emotional, social,and behavioral issues at time,but that becuase I rellay don’t know how to deal with it all.
They are treating me like this person who has physical outburst all the time witch rellay happen I’m a vere commutative outburst kind of kid. I have a Behavior Intervention Plan, am on restricted computer access, can’t have my phone on me at all, have to be Escorted everywhere if I what to go anywhere in the building because they think I might hurt my self or skip class, am close monitored by aids and teachers throw out the day, so in case I have a breakdown,anxiety attack, or having a bad depperson day,they can intent so is not such a sense. Have to see my school console and take a mental health break at least one day to keep me sane.
My parents and I have been arguing a lot more lately as they also think am just a bad kid and they think they can fix it when they can’t at one point my parents smash my phone grounded me for month almost sent me away to a mental hospital or Would have kicked me out to live with firanda for awhile, and said some pretty horrible things about me that are not true and they have an apologize for so is been rellay Rocky with them I feel like I can never get away from being labeled the bad kids now and everyone expects me to be perfect and I just can’t do that some days it’s really frustrating.
I feel so worstless sometime like I’m less then everyone else specal at school,they seem to make my mental health worst then beater, I feel like no one really cares about me as no one listen or try to help me when I’m stuggle and that rellay suck when all you what someone to do is to care just a little bit.
There have been so many time I have whated to give up because of school specal in the last cupple month but I never did because I have so much to live for after hight school I can’t give up right this battle just yet…
I love you all at this community you all really understands what am going throw and rellay are just there listen and give yeveryone else advice am so Grateful for that.
Thank you for sharing with us what’s going on in your life and what’s on your heart. I’m so sorry you’re experiencing being labeled at school. At the same time you know that you’re not a bad kid and that there are issues that need to be addressed, but these don’t define you. I’m so glad to read you’re aware of this, because you are just right. You are loved and valuable.
There seems to be a lot going on to help you with your issues. Does it feel like punishment to you or can you also see a supportive side to it and an intention to help you cope better? From what you’re writing I totally understand that this feels like being monitored and controlled. Is there a chance for you to get something more out of this? Is there someone who teaches you tools and practices with you how to better cope with your emotions?
I’m sorry your parents aren’t as patient and understanding as they needed to be. This is 100% on their side and doesn’t say anything about you as a person. I know it is so hard to believe when this comes from your own parents, but please don’t give up believing in you. You are a good person. You know this, and we all know this as a community. We care about you so much and we want you to get better.
Honestly, this moved me to tears. I am so, so proud of you. You are so strong and truly inspiring. I am very grateful for your post. Sending you much love. You matter, Kaitlin.
Yes is feel like punishment and it not help as I feel is just make it worst for me, they are really not haven’t anyone try to help me when I’m stuggle or really teach me how to deal with my emsona or give me coping Strategies to help me get throw the stuggle someday, they just tell I have to fix it without tell how to fix when again I don’t know how to fix or I would have done so alone time ago. the hardest part is that I don’t like being this way I actually hate be this way but I still this way because nobody get to the root causes of issues and try to find Solutions that actually help, because mably they don’t know how to help,and don’t know how to admit that but that not my fault and shouldn’t be get the bash lash for that I feel so alone like no one understands and that why I reached out because I just what some to understand and support me
I totally agree with you on that. I’m so impressed by your ability to separate what’s going on from your Self. This really is a superpower. I’m so sorry though that you’re in this situation and feeling that way. I’m a bit irritated that you haven’t been taught tools (or skills) that help you regulate yourself in a better way. That’s really tough.
Probably I’m not suggesting anything new and maybe it’s not applicable at all. It just crossed my mind. So I thought I’d share it, but I’m sorry if this was an inappropriate suggestion, of course I don’t know the specifics. Are you familiar with breathing exercises or some other relaxation techniques to help you get grounded?
I approach you try to help in any way you can don’t be soory, I approach the kid words. I was in therapy along time ago,and did Lear something,but is been while, so I lost of lot that a learned,am on meds witch dose help soon and I see doctor but she doesn’t help much , and the school system hasn’t been vere helpful with give me the cope Strategies I need or Accommodating my needs very well so unfortunately I get stuck with fix it but I can’t fit it is tell Irritating having to fight for myself all the time no one listening but I will never give up trying to get better and yes I use breathing exercises,take walk,splash water on my face,take a break,listen to music, color, bath, exercise depped on how am feel and what I think I need in that moment to keep going and stay calm I need people to level me alone so I can calm down but the school wouldn’t do that so there that.
Hi Kaitlin, I have borderline personality disorder (bpd) and I’m not sure if you know anything about it, but usually the person with BPD is labeled toxic and the trouble maker. I know that you aren’t able to control out bursts and that can be scary for you. I know with me, I have uncontrolled rage outbursts and I can’t control it until I recognize what is happening. Are you able to do that too? I hope you can find peace and the support you need. ~Mystrose
Hi Friend, thank you so much for your post I am so sorry you are having such a bad time both at school and at home and I am even more sorry that people are being so mean to you. I want to start by saying the most important thing to you and that is that you are NOT a bad kid, not even a little bit you are a wonderful young person with a massive heart that needs a lot more love and understanding. I wish more people in your life had time to sit and actually talk to you about how you feel and what you want from your life. It must be very hard to be monitored as much as you are and I can understand why that would make you so frustrated, but if you can try to do some deep breathing when you can feel yourself getting angry and see if that helps its may be worth a try. We are always here for you, we think you are awesome and you are a valued member of our heart support family. Just before i finish, i have found a website that might interest you, ill put a link under this post. Much Love Lisa. x
Hi Kaitlin. What you wrote reminded me so much of being at school and being labelled the “sad kid” when I was diagnosed with depression. You get the feeling that schools have a checklist of things that they are supposed to do, but they never just ask you what would actually help you. More than that, sometimes you need someone to tell you that they understand how hard you’re trying and to praise you when things go better than expected. You’re not a bad kid. Every day for you is a triumph against the odds because you have so much more to contend with. That shows bravery, not badness. I’m sorry that you don’t feel you have the right support around you, but I hope that support from this community can give you the understanding that you need and deserve. You have everything to live for my friend. x
People never stop talking about others and label them something which they aren’t. Nobody seems like they want to help you so I really like the fact that you reached out to us to get some help from us online. We can’t see each other but at least we can still try to make you feel better Never give up, it is the worst thing that you can do and nobody should make you do so. Whenever you’re feeling like this, just keep in mind that you’re not a bad person, but you’re just a person who has mental health issues and there are a lot of people who are going through the same thing. We are with you and I wish you the best of luck. You seem like a very nice person and you do not deserve this at all
Thanks everyone,you guys are the best, and that why I reached out, because I knew you guys would understand,give me all you love/support. I don’t know what I do with out this community someday you guys keep me going when I feel I cant
