Hi there @Rosethorn,
We discussed a bit during the past weeks, and I’m sorry you’re hurting right now. I’m holding your hand and want you to know that you’re not alone.
Those tears are not stupid. For the moment, they have a reason to be, even if it’s exhausting.
What about doing something that makes you feel comfy, relaxed, and doesn’t need to spend much energy? Like being wrapped in a cosy blanket and drinking some hot beverage. I’m pretty sure you can think about that kind of thing, even smallest ones, so you can do it when you feel down and take care of yourself.
You’ll get to art and dance again. What you’re feeling right now is temporary. When you feel like everything is too difficult, then you can come back to simple and easy things to do for yourself. Other things can wait.
Sending much love to you.