Someone special walked out of my life. It makes me not want to get close with anyone anymore.
He says I’m emotionally weak…that I hurt myself and don’t go after things or own my choices. I know this is true. We got in an argument and he said I stress him out.
It hurts. I used to make this person laugh a lot. I really care about him but I made him feel helpless.
I’m trying to push myself forward as a person. I started housekeeping for money, got help to learn how to budget and set up a financial plan, started working on art again, and even been looking at massage therapy schools to attend. I get a lot of severe anxiety and end up drained a lot. I attempted to communicate my feelings more and lately he seemed more patient than he’s ever been but…
He said my inconsistency with emotions drains him. And that I get stressed too easily and complain.
Hes not the first person who said I’m too emotional and have difficult controlling my emotions but after he told me how he felt, my heart hurt.
Everything he said is true… I pushed a lot of people out of my life especially this past year. If anyone has any advice on how to learn how to manage emotions, I would love to know so I can just push in the right direction. People used to call me funny, I used to make people laugh. Lately I’m so anxious around others. Losing him bites and I don’t want to be in this cycle anymore.