Had a fight with my last night and lost a friendship with someone then today started out had a blah woke up 7:30 (support get out of dorm by 7:30) I don’t get out still 7:50 I was late for classes because its a long walk over by time I got there it was 8:15 I don’t take my meds which effect me all days all days was blah it started getting worst when is start snapping at my teacher and being rude (which I never do) then the bell want to the next class was playing around with 2 students then we starting got in trouble so I want back to work then student being rude so I was rude back then another student got into it then I want back to my work then I got a marker throw at me and I flip off at anyone then a students started being RUDE SO I was rude back then they talk quiet behide my back called me bitch I walk out of class and flipped a desk then want to the smoking area then breath calm down I had my dorm key in my pocket and I used it and cause a wound all down my hand (self harm) after I want one the teacher I trusted told what happen I start breaking down and crying they had one the high ranking people here come and talk to me they know that I NEVER lose my temper like that
because of what happened I maybe getting kicked out of the program or in big big trouble ;( I cant do this All was this wasn’t my fault student was keep pushing and I blow
(I’m scared maybe anyone right I’m a monster ;( I havn’t seen this side of me since my abusive father was in my life I don’t wanna live anyone this pain I cant do it