I was doing school work just now, working on an essay and such, so I had my phone on silent, I didn’t hear any notification. And when I pulled up my phone I saw some messages from my boyfriend, and he was saying he was sorry, and gave an I love you and I knew something was wrong quickly. He has depressive moments like me, and he has said to me he was suicidal, but I always was there for him. And I can’t help but realize, he
Could be gone. I feel like my heart shattered, broke, I really cared for him. I loved him so deeply, he cared for me so much as well. He helped me not commit myself and with the whole system thing. And I can’t bear to think I lost him. I’m currently in the bathroom typing this up with tears. I just messaged him but he hasn’t responded, and I’m worried I’m too late. He sent me that message half an hour ago. I don’t know what the fuck to do. My brain is fuzzy and I can’t stop crying.