I think I just lost the person I love the most

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I was doing school work just now, working on an essay and such, so I had my phone on silent, I didn’t hear any notification. And when I pulled up my phone I saw some messages from my boyfriend, and he was saying he was sorry, and gave an I love you and I knew something was wrong quickly. He has depressive moments like me, and he has said to me he was suicidal, but I always was there for him. And I can’t help but realize, he

Could be gone. I feel like my heart shattered, broke, I really cared for him. I loved him so deeply, he cared for me so much as well. He helped me not commit myself and with the whole system thing. And I can’t bear to think I lost him. I’m currently in the bathroom typing this up with tears. I just messaged him but he hasn’t responded, and I’m worried I’m too late. He sent me that message half an hour ago. I don’t know what the fuck to do. My brain is fuzzy and I can’t stop crying.

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Heya @Sky-Trev Before you assume anything. Call him. See if he answers. Please stay safe.

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He hasn’t responded at all, I can’t call because it’s a secret gay relationship if my family looks at my call history and see I called him everything is out of the bag. I don’t know what to do, I already sent him texts everywhere.

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Hey @Sky-Trev, I can’t imagine the strain you’re going through hiding a relationship like that from your family, but if you believe his life is in danger then that should come first.

If your family asks questions, tell them he’s a friend, tell them he was a suicidal schoolmate, tell them whatever you have to. We will all support you through that. What we can’t do is check on him this instant. You have that ability now.

I know you’re terrified. You’re facing a choice between losing a loved one or outing yourself to your family, and I can’t begin to imagine what kind of pressure that’s putting you under right now. Things with the family will be whatever they are, be it awkward or hateful or shaming; but if he’s in danger, the only thing he’ll be is gone. Be brave, friend. I’m saying a prayer for each of you.

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Update: thankfully he’s alive but he attempted, I’m still worried but he’s okay thankfully

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I’m so glad to hear that. I hope he can start healing with you by his side. Thanks for the update, and let us know how it progresses.

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Of course, he has some bruising but it should heal by tonight

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Things have been troubling, we have this friend that has been insulting and being transphobic to me and today we are calling him out but with the attempt it’s been a bit stressful…

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Try deleting that specific call if you have an IPhone. Hope this helps.

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Also, don’t be friends with a transphobic ass. You deserve better. I hope your boyfriend is okay.

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even then they can look at my phone subscription to Sprint and see who I called

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Oh. Maybe say it’s a friend? And if they don’t know your trans, would they be okay with you having a boyfriend?

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No, they know all my friends, except a few I keep secret. I can’t bring myself up to lie about it being someone they know

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