I thought I was going to end this day on a good one, I was actually happy today, but nope, my mom’s husband decided to be creepy again.
I thought maybe it was over, maybe I was just in my head, nope, what a stupid assumption.
I cannot fathom to tell you how much it scares me to be around this freak. I’m the only one that sees it because everyone in this family is fucking stupid and oblivious to literally everything.
No one ever notices but me. Always. Me.
I hate this, now I just want to die again. I hate living here. I hate this thing existing. I just want to be happy, I just want to feel safe. Why… why does it have to happen again. Why do these freaks exist. Why do they do these things.
I can’t be wrong.
I couldn’t be wrong.
I always have to act like nothing happened, I always have to act completley normal.
I don’t even know if I’m overreacting because idk wtf is real or not anymore.
Shut my doors/ lock my doors, I’m never fucking allowed to anymore because they think I’m going to kill myself. I’m locking my fucking doors tonight fuck this shit, fuck this family, fuck this this creepy motherfucker, fuck this house, no one ever listens to me. I’ve told my sister, she just wrote me off as “paranoid”. I want to tell my grandmother but she’d freak out. She already hates him and doesn’t trust him but if she knew… She’d make a big deal out of it, and what if it is in my head? But I can’t be seeing and hearing things. Why does the mf do it in front of people, wtf. Kill him. I just want him dead. Please just die. I made a mistake thinking I might be safe here, if there is a god please kill this parasite. Please. Please, please…
But no, my wish is never answered because there is no god.
I’m scared… I’m really scared…
I just want to get out of here. Please…