I don’t really no why I’m here typing this topical at all, really. I guess I need to collect my thoughts. The past few months have been different I guess they’ve gotten better??? My parents are same as always except my mom has been getting extremely depressed because of how my dad works down in Tasmania and I think she really misses him? But the way she’s acting is insane I mean she’s never kind even less caring she’s either angry, sad or crazy angry to the point that she just becomes incredibly vindictive towards everyone. I mean can see how it’s understandable but at the same time it’s really effecting her role as my mother or parent i mean half the time I wish she was never my mother the other half is just trying to avoid getting in trouble. Really I hate both my parents. I’ve never felt much care or affection from either of them.
School is worse my “friends” treat me like shit most of my time spent with them is being push3d and shoved by them or locked in a headlock, carried around like a baby then dumped on the floor or just being insulted in general. But I can’t seem to move away from them. Every lunch time I go sit with them rather other people who are nice to me. I guess the fact that nobody really likes me. I’m just a horrible person who deserves nothing more. I really don’t know where I stand at home or school.
I’m just so confused about what should I do. I mean I’m doing alll the right things, I’m getting all my homework done, doing or my chores, I’m always nice to everyone no matter what they do I’ve been clean form my self harm for over 3 months yet I feel worse then I ever had.