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I want my brother back

Here they are, again, the mourning feelings. It’s been more than a year since my brother died. But again, it’s as if I realized it for the first time. It hurts so badly.
I want my brother back. I want him back in my life and it’s driving me crazy. I want to talk to him, to laugh with him, to go out and have one of those random night walks we used to have. I want him to have the life he deserved. I want my brother back to say to him how much I love him. I want to hold him in my arms.
I feel overwhelmed and I just wish I could sleep all day long to stop thinking and feeling. I don’t want to feel anything anymore.
A part of me died with him. A part that had some kind of faith in life, in justice. I was nothing before he died. I am less than nothing now.

Hey Micro. I know there’s really nothing I can say that will lessen the pain with the loss of your brother, but I just wanted you to know that this community is HERE for you.

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