I want to kill myself so badly😖

Fake friends, no family, I’m alone. Depression has got the best of me. Cutting just to feel something. I don’t want to live anymore… but I’m so scared of death. The only thing with religious stuff honestly is the heaven and hell if that is true, I don’t want to end up in pain forever. Painful memories of the beatings, the screaming, the things said, being used. I just want to fucking let go! I’m too much of a coward to do it. God isn’t there forbidden me what accept God and just fucking sir there by yourself to pray out loud to yourself. Idk what to do smoke weed, take acid, still with fake friend. Huh where’s God?

Fishers, Im sorry you’re going through this.

I know things may be hard right now but the first step in feeling better is with yourself. If you are around fake friends then separate yourself from them. As for the cutting and the depression, I highly recommend you read Mountains and ReWrite from HeartSupport (I’m including links for free copies of both books). As for feeling alone, I assure you that you are not alone, if you ever get that feeling I encourage you to go to the HeartSupport Discord https://discord.gg/heartsupport and reach out to someone.

Rewrite: https://heartsupport-merch.myshopify.com/products/send-me-a-rewrite-book
Dwarf Planet: https://heartsupport-merch.myshopify.com/products/send-me-a-dwarfplanet-book

Hold Fast friend, we love you.

No I’m on my own, there’s so much I don’t want to share and I’m not a reader just looking for advice not a novel

Just keep living man. I’ve thought about ending it but I’m too Afraid as well. It’s not what needs to happen. There are people out There who will love you it’s just a matter of leaving the ones who
Don’t help
You and finding the ppl who will care for you… they are out there. Heartsupport is here. Just being able to type my thoughts down and share them with strangers who might be going through the same thing helps a great deal… this is a judgement free place…

Peace to you

1 Like

@Fishers15, I understand wanting to die but feeling too cowardly to do it. It’s okay. We’re all afraid of endless pain.
Family doesn’t have to be everything and doesn’t work out that way all the time. Fake friends? Take it from me, it’s better to be alone than have fake friends. All you really need is yourself. You might be full of anger, but YOU ARE STILL HERE. I see you, I don’t see depression on the throne or cowardice, all I see is a fighter. :slightly_smiling_face:

Stay Alive - Andy Black