Ok well I met my girlfriend Jasmin through a friend, she’s German and i’m from the U.K. We’ve known each other since August last year and she asked me about 3 months ago if I want to be with her and it made me so happy I can’t put into the words, we’re really alike in how we think and the thing’s we’ve been through. But recently It feels like she is drifting away from me and I don’t know why. We argue more and more and it’s mainly me starting them. Over stupid things I guess. A little about us I’m 21 currently looking for work and have many problems that catch up to me sometimes and get on the top of me from the past. And she is 20 we like simple things we call each other every now and then we watch anime and movies together and just speak for hours but it’s gotten less and less recently. And I’ve noticed it. I overthink things because of my insomnia and stay awake for days thinking about horrible things. I speak to her about it, she’s not the best with words and I understand because I’m the same.
I don’t know if it’s me showing to much love or her just being cold in nature, and like I said it feels like she is drifting away, I’ve asked her about it and she said it’s not the case but I don’t believe her. Also she said she was coming to visit me in March then changed it April and now I don’t have a clue. She’s told me she want’s a life with me because she has nothing in Germany no friends hardly no family and the family she has she doesn’t speak to.
Is it me trying to rush things or is it her trying to put off things? I want me and her to last so it feels like I am rushing things sometimes, but it feels like she’s pulling away from a lot of things.