My suicidal urges have been getting stronger and stronger. I tried last month but lost two nights of sleep. Planning on mixing alcohol this next time. Hopefully, I die
I just needed to get this out of my head.
I really want to die. Every day, I somehow think of effective ways of killing myself and this seems to be the best one for me.
Megadave020,
Keep holding on.
I hate that the urges are getting stronger, but you can do this.
Make it through today then face tomorrow when it comes.
You have overcome this before and I believe you can do it again.
Don’t give up. We need you. You are a vital part of the community, Megadave020.
Surround yourself physically with people who believe in you.
Think about the victories in your life, no matter how small. You can do this.
Hold Fast my friend,
-SJ
Dave. I love you. I know it feels like there is no hope. You’ve been in a place where you’ve had hope in the past. Please don’t let go of that. We believe in you.
I promise that is not the answer friend. You matter to us here. You’ll be in my thoughts for sure. I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way 
Please keep holding on.
You are loved. u matter to all of us. you will be in my thoughts… keep holding on. been there before. you are strong
Dave,
I believe in you, we all do. This isnt the answer, friend. Think of every song you’ll never hear, every band you’ll never see, every story you’ll never read.
Hope isnt always a big bolt of lightning, sometimes its a flickering light in the distance. You can get to that light.
You got this, and we’ll help.
MegaDave. You’ve already taken the first step in beating down. It may not feel like it now, but you will not be in this state of mind forever. You are incredibly important to everyone and we love you so much. Please please know you CAN fight these urges and no way of suicide is the best one for you. The best thing for you is to continue to reach out, use the community and ANYONE you have around you to help you through this. You are stronger than the thoughts and urges and we will help you as much as we can to get through this. Just let us know what we can do. We love you and you are SO WORTH life.
Kayla
Hey Dave,
I’m really sad you’re in this place again. It sucks to see someone we care about so much losing hope in themselves and this life. You’re so important. And you’ve been here before and made it through. I know you can do it again. We still need you here friend. You can do this.
Megadave020 - You’re a fighter. You’re strong. We love you and we want to see you win. You’re going through a dark and scary season, but I promise, it WILL pass. Please just keep fighting. Your life is so, so valuable.
sorry you’re going through this =/ stick around with us, there should be another way. you’re not alone.
Megadave friend I am so sorry these are back I want to know that you are loved and that I care about you. I am so sorry that this is still going on but I want to say KEEP FIGHTING THIS FIGHT. I know just how bad and hard it gets but you can do this. Life may be dark right now but your time is coming. I have tried to do this myself but it is not the option that we should take we need to take our lives and know that one day we will be in a place we didnt think was possible. Today alone I have people who stood up and said that they care about me and were not happy the way I was being treated it shocked me but remember that you will find what works for you BUT THIS IS NOT THE OPTION.
Hold fast and know I care about you a lot.
Ash
Dave,
I get where you’re coming from, I’ve been there many times before myself. I just want you to know it does get better. Reach out to the people around you, you’ll find that there’s a ton of support out there. It can be hard to do, but it does get better.
If you ever need someone to talk to, or I can help in any other way, do not hesitate to reach out at anytime. I’m just a message away. You can find me in the Heart Support discord and on Twitch under the name BobTheCanadianGuy. Just know we are here for you and want to see you happy in life. Hold fast, my friend.
Much love from your new friend,
Bob (TheCanadianGuy)
Love you Megadave020 Stay stong <3
Megadave,
im so sorry you have to go through this . you are not alone. please stay alive. you have a purpose to be alive. you mean so much to this community. we love you here. YOUR LIFE MATTERS! please stay alive we want you to see you get better friend.
Remember YOU ARE WORTH IT and hold fast friend! <3
-Ashley
I have felt like this all my life but it really isnt the way out. please stay strong you matter here
I appreciate the posts, everyone. Thank you.
This life isn’t worth living and I constantly have this urge to commit suicide.
@Megadave020 I completely understand how you feel - I’ve been there before, with the same train of thought. You’re not alone. Now being on the other side, I would argue that life is definitely worth living; you have so, so much to live for. May I ask if you’ve tried seeing a psychiatrist or counselor about what you’re going through?
Therapist and psychiatrist. None of them help
@Megadave020 What has your experience with antidepressants been like? Although everyone’s different, the ones that worked best for me are Zoloft/Celexa (depression) and Venlafaxine (anxiety).
In the meantime, I’ve built a mini “emergency list” for myself when I go through swings. Although it’s really difficult to do anything when you’re pinned with depression, I highly recommend fighting back with any (or all) of the following ideas:
Antidepressants and mood stabilizers did nothing for me.
You know what? I’m sorry if this offends anyone but I genuinely want to die. I don’t have hope in myself or my future.
I just really want to kill myself. I don’t care about what I’m missing out on.