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Belongs to: Therapist Reacts to Daddy By Korn
I was 8 when I was molested by a man and his two then teenage sons from my neighborhood. That lasted for a year almost and then thankfully they moved and left. Next year I developed psoriasis and I still battle autoimmune’s. I never told anyone and certainly not my mom because I knew she wouldn’t believe me (she was also physically and emotionally abusive to me but that’s a whole other issue). She died in March 2023 not knowing (no one knows except my husband hello trust issues!) and for me it’s better. That song was my catharsis too. When I hear it I hear my self screaming the lyrics in my head. I was just a child already alone with no one beside me I am blameless.
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Hello there 
Yeah as far as the psoriasis there are treatments and medications for that as far as that. Seeking medical support for those are kinda important someone in my family has arthritis and skin issues so i know how it is as far that. But, the mental aspect looking back on the molested issue that must been pretty painful to be in that situation and as far that being in the head so best option is to heal and move on from the pain of it. Also that you’re mother wasn’t treating you as a role model that you needed her to be instead of being in that place of support. Know that you’re not alone and many have been the role of abuse.
I’m also glad that heartsupport videos are helping you so far listen to still songs that inspire through alot our struggles.
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Your post and relation to this song reminds me of the song bones of a rabbit by young heretics.
The line “you may keep yourself afloat, but you will not out swim me” gives so much power to rising through such abuse it really connects to what you said about being blameless.
And that you are. Having to hide and bury the trauma and abuse from your mother must have been such a hard and painful experience.
I’m here to say that you are believed. That you are seen. What you have been through was and could never be anything you deserved.
I’m so glad you have your husband by your side. To allow you the voice that you kept inside for so many years.
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That’s so horrible. Thanks for sharing. It takes a lot of strength to post this. I’m happy you have your husband for. I’m sure others who have been through something similar will take comfort in knowing they aren’t alone.
Satty
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Hi there. Thank you so much for reaching out. First and foremost, I want to commend you for your bravery in sharing this. It’s amazing that you have been able to open up a little bit more, especially considering what you went through. I’m so so sorry that you ever had to go through something like that. To go through sexual abuse, especially at such a young age, is horrendous. You did not deserve any of what you went through, and I’m glad that you were eventually able to get out of that situation. As for the autoimmune issues, I can completely understand how difficult that is. I too have struggled with autoimmune issues for the majority of my life, and it can be debilitating.
I want you to know that you’re not alone in your experiences. There are others just like you that have gone through these awful things, and I hope that you can find some sort of comfort in that. Please know that we are here to support you whenever you need it, so feel free to reach back out again. Sending you all the love and support!
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hey friend,
thank you for being here and sharing this with your heartsupport community. i’m so thankful you have this space to be vulnerable and i hope letting this out even through an anonymous forum can provide some cathartic healing. it’s absolutely evil what the men who molested you did but that does not define you. their wrongdoings define them, sure, but your strength is what shines. you are one hell of a warrior. thank you again for your trust and vulnerability and you’ll be in my thoughts as you continue on in your journey with your husband at your side and a better tomorrow ahead. you’re loved, valued, and you matter.
love,
twix
Hello there friend,
I just want to start off by acknowledging how strong you are. It takes a lot of courage to speak up and be open. I applaud you. Someone may see your post and it gives them the strength to open up about their experiences too.
You have been dealt some very tough cards at a young age. You rose above that and what others have done to you. You have shown so much fortitude. I am so proud of you for doing that. It is truly inspirational. Please remember that although you may have felt alone, or still do at times. Your husband is there for you. And we are here for you. Stay strong and keep the tunes going!
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I want to start off by saying that you showed just how strong you are. To be able to openly share your story with us takes courage and shows that you won’t let what happened to you keep you from being an incredibly loving person. I can’t begin to imagine how many lives you will be able to touch and how many people you can save who or are going through this same thing. You are absolutely right that you are blameless and i hope that’s something that you never forget. I believe that you have more trust in you than you realize by sharing your story with us. But what’s more important is that you have proven to yourself that you can face anything and come out victorious. You have a fighter in you, and that will help you defeat any negativity that your past tries to burden you with.
With love
Eric
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Hi,
I am deeply sorry that you had to endure an extremely traumatic experience at such a young age. It is very heartbreaking to know that you went through that without having the support and protection you deserved.
I understand you having trust issues because of what you’ve been through/ The trauma from the abuse + the battle with autoimmune conditions make it harder to find a way to heal.
I just want to remind you that none of what happened to you is your fault. You were a child and you have no responsibility for what happened. You deserve to feel heard, validated, and supported.
Healing is an ongoing journey, and you cant change the past but you deserve to find please and reclaim your sense of self.
Sending lots of love and support
@@HeartSupport Thanks for all the kind messages. I know I’m not alone even tho I wish I was in the sense that I wish no other child goes through what I have. In the grand scheme of things everything that I’ve been through made me the person I am today despite of everything being stacked against me. I’ve become a better person and I strive to be a good mom for my kids and always show them the love and support they deserve. Even when I struggle with my darkest thought they are my shining light and my guides…
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@@HeartSupport It’s my hope that people will open up about traumatic experience such as these and leave them behind were they belong. The stigma that we also carry is another burden to shoulder and we don’t deserve that. We lose way too many people from those situations and I was almost one of them.