I been trying to do DBT therapy by myself, without a class or a teacher. Don’t all way have the best insurance. I live in Massachusetts and I’m on health connector, which insurance I got was tuff pubic health. All the DBT classes I see don’t take my insurances and it hard figure out where to find those class are in my state. I do regular therapy session and do sometime a social anxiety group. Also been taking CBD gummies and try doing mindful exercises.
However, I almost when a full year with self harm and last week I punch my skull and post on Facebook. I have such a burning hatred towards my self and my mistakes. One tiny situation or word can sent me off. I will get instense feeling while working my dead end job and pays poorly. I get though of killing people, cutting my wrist and just verbal abuse.
I’m am abuse, I say fuck of shit and don’t know why I do it. I’m terrified of my inner shadow and that will take over and I can’t be safe. It will get to point where I will kill myself and might get a brain tomor.
My parents don’t understand me ( I’m loser that live his parents.) they love and care. But they want to help find a DBT class and just want to pray to god. I’m not into religion ( not trying to offend anyone) and did try it but felt nothing and actually make my depression worst.
It awesome to able to get help I need.