To be honest I really don’t want to bore anyone with my back story so I’ll just get to the point. I really really hate myself. I’m basically not able to look in the mirror without being disgusted. I’m constantly depressed and stressed and crying and everytime something bad happens I just blame it on myself. I’m insecure and I feel that I don’t deserve love and happiness. I’m having problems eating properly, I’ve been dehydrated twice now and I have had multiple deficiencies because I just forget or don’t care enough to take care of myself.
I’ve been trying hard to be more positive and maybe one day accept myself but as soon as the tiniest thing happens I beat myself up again. I am since recently in an amazing relationship and I feel like all my negativity is going to ruin it.
I would really appreciate some constructive ideas or tips on how to help me gain confidence and respect for myself and maybe even help me have more happiness in life.
Thanks for taking the time to read this.