I’ll respond to the rest when I get home, I have limited time right now, but, the idea about getting a book is genius. I’m gonna do that for sure. Thank you!
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Aah yay that’s great u like the book suggestion 
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My midterms went well. The work has never been too much of a problem for me, its more the school itself and the toxicity of the environment.
I got the book. I’ve written a few letters to her already. I really enjoy doing it. It’s extremely comforting and I really can’t wait to find her, fall in love with her, have her fall in love back with me, and eventually marry her and give this book to her.
No, I don’t.
They never will unfortunately. And I can’t blame some of them. They said really nasty things to each other. Unforgivable things. It’s a shame, but, that’s how my family is, and I can’t change them. I’ve tried for a while but it never worked.
Mindful apps are another thing that probably wouldn’t work for me. I don’t know, my brain is weird, there’s only very specific things that help me. I’m so glad I found writing letters to my future wife, that has helped me so much.
I’m sorry about your anxiety. I hope the therapy helps you. I really do. You seem like a wonderful person.
I mostly help assist the other teachers, sometimes I run portions of the class. I fully run the demonstration team though. And 2 weeks from now I’m running my first full class on my own besides demo class.
I hate my school so much. I can’t move schools. I wish I had in the past. Would’ve saved me a lot of anxiety, depression, and pain. College HAS to be better. I won’t survive another 4 years like this. High school and middle school were fucking horrible. 7 years of just pure pain. It needs to change.
Bandit sleeps with us. He has his own crate. Its late, so its hard to think of specific stuff he does, but he just runs around the house and causes chaos lol.
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So sorry for the late reply, haven’t been feeling well. But went to doc yesterday and got meds so should be in the mend soon.
How has your week been so far? Two more sleeps till weekend sanity. What do you do on the weekend? Mostly gaming and series?
Its good to hear that your midterms went well, yay! Well done. Is this the last midterms you’ll write? Its a shame the school environment has become toxic for most. But you’re almost there so keep pushing through. Look how far you have come. Its been 49 days today since we started chatting. I am so very proud of you. I hope you are proud of yourself too.
Lets make sure we have the important dates of this year so far we have to look forward to…
JediSurvivor - 17 March
Mandalorian Season 3 - March
TKD Tournament (what date?)
Your birthday 12 July
Graduation June (what date is it?)
College August (what date is it?)
Have we missed anything out?
I am so so happy you got the book and that you are enjoying it and that it brings comfort to you. It makes my heart so happy to hear that.
How is your friend in Poland and are are those new headphones serving you well?
Are you still taking Bandit for walks and getting some sunshine ?
Do you drive yet? What age are you allowed to drive and get your licence? Is driving something you look forward to?
Do you cook at all? Being Italian does your Mom make the actual pasta from scratch? And do you eat a lot of pizza, because Pizza is life lol?
Ooh how exciting and what a great achievement that you have done so well in TKD. Yay can’t wait to hear how it went with your first full running of a class. Please remember to tell me.
About College. Yes we are definitely hopeful it will be better because hopefully the people there are more like minded and you will have similar interests being enrolled in the same course. Fingers and toes crossed for college.
I’m sorry about those nasty and unforgivable things that was said in your family. I hope that was not towards you and it was to rather amongst themselves? Its so sad and I find sometimes these things families do and say are so unnecessary. I wish people could see the value of being able to have family and being able to share life together.
Do you draw or do Art at school or is poetry and creative writing more your thing?
I think I need to start watching Kobra Kai or Mandalorian. Which do you think I should watch first?
Stay strong and remember you have got this. Chat soon.
Much love and hugs.
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I’m so sorry! I’ve been super busy! But I have excellent news!
So, I’ve been doing a lot better. I’ve been writing letters to my future wife and its been helping me so much. So that’s one good thing
Between school and Tae Kwon Do my schedule has been packed. It’s been a lot lately. School is still crappy, but, whatever.
Okay, now to the really good news. I’ve met a girl through a Discord server for admitted students to the college I’m going to. We’ve been talking for about a month now. She’s really amazing. We have a lot in common, we’ve called a few times now and every call has lasted for a few hours at a time. We’re meeting in person for the first time in a few weeks at an Admitted Students Day. I can’t wait. She’s incredibly sweet, funny, everything I like in girls. Oh, and, she’s cute haha. She’s said some really sweet things to me since we started talking, I really like her and I hope to god she likes me back because she’s awesome. I really have hope this is gonna work out. I don’t think I’m gonna tell her exactly how I feel until college when we could actually start dating, but, its going well so far and I really hope it works out 
Other than that, things have been alright. Just really hoping she likes me back. She’s said she loves talking to me, so there’s that. I just hope it works, I really do, she’s wonderful. Hope you’re doing well @Simplyme
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Good morning @JediSurvivor
Good to hear from you. I am good thank you, all is well here on my side.
Great to hear you are still doing your book and TKD. Again so proud of you for holding on, hoping and persevering through life. Well done. Before u know it school is over and you’ll be sending me a pic of your graduation and telling me how it went and how well you did.
I am so glad u are doing well. Look at how far u have come. I am so proud of you. I knew you had that strength in you to overcome anything.
Thats great news. It’s so wonderful about meeting this lovely girl. It’s so good you are building a friendship and getting to know each other. When is Admittance week?
I’m really glad she is treating you well.
Yes I agree with you. Wait till college. And even when College arrives take it slowly. Spend time in person, enjoy eachothers company. Make memories, laugh together, go for walks, eat ice cream, make eachother playlists, and enjoy all the small things. That’s what’s it’s important as it lays a good foundation for you both before you date.
Sooo tell me more. Is she the same age? What are her interests? What is she going to study?
I’m so excited and so happy for you. Thank you for sharing your special news with me and including me on this journey with her.
Looking forward to more news.
Much love and hugs
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It’s hard sometimes to keep going. School always sucks. But, at least there’s some positive now
Admitted Students weekend starts on March 24!
I really want things to work out with her. She’s just…so amazing. She really feels so right for me. Her personality is just wonderful, I love talking to her and she’s just such a fantastic person. I can’t wait to make memories in person with her. And hopefully start dating eventually. I just feel like everything is so right with her…I just hope to god she feels the same way about me…if she doesn’t, I’d honestly be crushed. She really seems to like me and it just all feels perfect.
She’s the same age as me, almost exactly. She’s studying Game Art! And she’s into Star Wars, Nintendo, drawing, anything art really. She’s super talented!
I really hope it works out. She’s just a terrific girl, I can’t say enough positive things about her. I just really hope she falls for me the same way I have for her. It would just be so heartbreaking if this was onesided when it feels like we already have such a great connection. It just feels so special. And I hope she feels the same way. I really do, she makes me so happy and if we really do get together, I would be so beyond happy, more than I can describe
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Sorry for the late reply. Time has run away, been so busy.
Sooo …. 8 more sleeps till admittance. So excited for u. Will u let me know how it goes?
She sounds lovely and I hope things work out. It’s so cool u have the same interests.
Any other news?
Look how time has flown. You’re doing so well and I am so proud of you. I’m really happy that you have held onto hope and kept persevering.
How’s things with your parents and family?
Are you still going for therapy?
How is your skin behaving?
Much love and hugs
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first, sorry for what your are goimg through through this, and thank you for sharing to heart support.
Im glad you recognize thay desperation is bad, it sure is. Another you find love within yourself, finding who you are, what kind of negative changes to positive changes to reverse your mind not to feel miserable.
By any chamce do you speak to a specialist ? Or take any medication? To ease how you are feeling?
Are you getting some sunlight? That also can change your mood and stabilize it.
Sorry that u lost friends and family cant get along, to be honest grief separates family and also changes people in so many level.
Family dont realoze the negative affect and the impact on children and how much attention a child need and redirecttion to understand life, life is hard and it will never be easy amd yes! You will be tested but shows also how strong are you and what are u willing to take it to move into a new path of life.
Is okay to be alone you find new things of yourself when you start to discovering your worth, and who should be in your circle of life.
Read book if your interested about life in perspective, psychology books also help set a perspective how to look at things differently.
Love will find you, you dont find love.
That something i learned over time being in relationships and not feeling worthy to them, i had found peace and love within myself.
You are worthy, you are love, you are beautiful, you are smart, you are intelligent. Positive affirmation has change me in so many ways amd growth with in experience ofcourse.
School is always stressful no matter what level you in due to common core my kids go through it themselves but it strengthen their mind to persue further for the future. I also reassure my children so they dont feel alone cause i know myself life is hard and i know how much it can break you down.
When life is hard i always quote Rocky Balboa movie when he speak life with in existence to his son in the movie is a great example. Sylvester Stallon always been my role mode and a great motivational speaker of life. You should watch it it gives that push you will realize it a change of perspective.
I hope this suits you well, you will be okay.
- How is your day today?
-How are you feeling today?
-Did u write in your journal today which can also help with your thoughts.
-just remember everyone talks amd people who talks they just bored and miserable themselves so, dont worry about them you will be safe that way.
What matter you know yourself what you want and dont want. Try to soeak with a counselor principles of any problems or advocate who willing to defend students report them if you have to dont worry you are in a battle and you will win the war, just push yourself harder god is watching those who hurt his children and will pay the price who done wrong. So, dont worry you are a warrior you got this.
Have a bless day @JediSurvivor ediSurvivor.
You got this hold your head high and conquer the world with your personality, love, character, and yourself.
God bless
Love Daisy.