So this past 2 weeks have felt like it’s been pretty bad. Feels like I’m drowning and can’t get out. Been struggling with mental health for years. And it hasn’t gotten this bad in a long time. It’s been about 2 weeks of this hell. Just feel like I’m broken. Getting to the point where I’m hearing stuff and seeing stuff that isn’t there. It’s pretty scary. Just like I just want all this to be over. I’m in so much pain. I don’t wanna be here anymore. I just wanna be a nobody so no one will know that some dumb stupid person like me will know that I even existed. In some sick minded way I want people to be Glad I’m gone. Because I hate myself so much that I feel like I’m a burden to everyone. I’ll just be another nameless soul on death’s list. I can’t deal with this anymore
Hey @magicjack2000,
I promise you that you are not a burden to us here. You have a voice that deserves to be heard, especially during such painful times.
Are you helped by anyone in your life? Is there someone you could call to be present with you and hang out for a bit? On a different note, do you see a therapist (or have the possibility to)? I hear you and I hear so much of your pain. It is especially during those times that we need to surround ourselves with people who can help.
Please let us know how we can support you. You have reached out just here and you are definitely not alone. We are willing to meet you just where you are and walk through all of this with you. How have these past 2 weeks been? Did something change lately or is affecting you more than usual?
Hold Fast. You are loved and needed in this world, even if you may not believe it right now. 
Hi @magicjack2000
hey friend, I am so sorry you have been struggling this much over the last couple of weeks, that feeling of drowning is a frightening one and one that I think a lot of us can relate to at some point in our lives.
I am so glad you have posted and chosen to share these feelings as you are not a burden at all, far from it and lets be real here, if you were really drowning and reaching out for someone to rescue you would anyone walk past because you were too much of a burden? Just because this is mental health does not make you any less worthy of saving.
Your pain is palpable and the I am truly hoping that the hatred you feel is more for your situation than for yourself as it is so much easier to find a way out if you start to care for yourself even just a little so in the meantime please hold on to the fact that we love and care for you, use this love to care for youself a little, use it as that lifeline that we throw out to stop you from drowning as we know that you and your life matter so very much. Hold on my friend.
Much Love Lisalovesfeathers 
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