I started a year long program in July of 2021. During the past 6 months I have broke off my engagement to my partner of 9 years for a lot of reasons that I don’t really want to get into. With this I have little to no money because he was supporting me. I maybe make $350 a month, it’s a stipend from the program. To make things even more complicated, during this program I have grew quite close with one of the guys here, we hit it off and recently it has been going down hill really fast and for reasons similar to why I left my engagement. I feel like I am backed in a corner with no where to go. I have maybe $500 dollars to my name, no car, no where to live. I have applied to countless jobs and can’t seem to get even an interview.
I feel so defeated and trapped. I haven’t stopped crying. I have talked with my brother and one of my closest friends but I don’t see any hope in my future and that is so scary. I don’t necessarily want to end my life but I don’t/can’t see me getting out of this feeling. How does one start from literally no where? I am really scared that I wont be able to get out of this rut.