Im hurting so much right now watching and listenin

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Im hurting so much right now, watching and listening to this. I just moved my stuff out of my ex girlfriends house, stored it at a friends house, and drove home to my mothers house where I currently live. My life changed in a way I didnt think was possible for us, cause we were so good together. Yes, we had flaws and arguments, but it was so very good even with our flaws.
I’ve had about 3 weeks with the worst feelings I have ever experienced when she told me she needed a break, to think about our relationship. 3 weeks with no sleep, little food and anxiety, desperation for an answer, trying to find my way back to her… I ended our relationship cause I understood that she could not do it, and I could not take the feeling of not knowing, being scared of losing the girl I love, what we have, everything… I could not take anymore of that. It breaks my heart knowing that she isnt willing to fight for our relationship and the love we found with each other. I feel lost, like where the fuck do I go now? I dont want to start over… I want you!
This song is beautiful, and I’ve listened to it many times before, but not in the same way as today. It’s like he is ripping my heart out of my chest speaking those words… I hope this feeling goes away quick, cause it is to much for me right now.

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Hi… I felt the pain through your words… I can’t imagine the hurt you are feeling, I’m so sorry… Relationships aren’t easy and what I found out through the years is that sometimes, when we are young, we end up growing in different directions or in different timings. It doesn’t mean suddenly there isn’t love anymore, it’s just that maybe someone’s needs are different now. It happens and is noone’s fault. There’s 2 ways you can deal with this: you let yourself keep hurting and wishing to go back (but why would you? It only makes sense when you both want right?) or you can start to think of you. Focus on yourself, take the lessons you need to take from that relationship and move on. If your happiness was there you wouldn’t feel misereable right now. I’m not saying to jump in another relationship :slight_smile: , by the contrary, take your time. But take your time for the possibilities that the future holds, not for the hurt of the pass.
I hope this somehow makes sense to you and I’m sorry if at some point I didn’t express myself correctly, english is not my mother tongue. :slight_smile:

Wish you all the best, one of these days you’ll be surprise to see that the sun stills shine and so does your life. :heart:

@@HeartSupport Thank you for a very much needed reply. I am doing much better now that a few weeks have passed. I still lay awake at night, finding it hard to sleep without her there, but I am doing much better. I am planning ahead, projects to be done, places to visit!

I love your content and your takes on lyrics etc! Thanks for creating :slight_smile:

@snunesss

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That’s so good to hear! Feel free to come back here everytime you need to talk about it (or something else!)! :heart:

@@HeartSupport Thank you, I will! Im around trying to watch as much content as I can! I hope your day is great!

@snunesss