Hi, i just have 18 years old, but i don’t wanna be here.
I feel so confused, i don’t feel beautiful or pretty, my boyfriend say that i’m beautiful and everyone tells me that.
I don’t believe in this, i can’t see myself with their eyes, sometimes i feel good enough and pretty, but the next day i feel like i’m not and i want to be more than i am.
And i feel away from my boyfriend, we are on vacations, so far away from each other and i feel jealous, we just talk for hours, but that’s not enough for me, i want to talk with him more, like the old times, but he’s always tired and he just wanna sleep.
So i say don’t worry, i’m fine. The true is that i’m not okay and i wanna die sometimes.
I have a lot of insecurities and constantly feeling that he’s gonna find somebody else and he’s gonna cheat on me, i’m so afraid and i have nightmares with this. He’s gonna leave me and find a better girl, he say no, but i don’t know what to do.
Sorry if my english is not good, i’m learning.
Good night to everyone.
Hi, i just have 18 years old, but i don’t wanna be here.
Hey @Impala67. I’m sorry to read that you are feeling so bad about yourself. It’s normal to feel a little insecure about yourself, but it seems as if this affects your life in a way that isn’t beneficial to you. Maybe you could talk to your doctor about how you are feeling? There might be something more going on and hopefully your doctor can help you with it, maybe help you to feel better. It takes time, but doctors can help through either medication or therapy.
I understand that you don’t like to be away from your boyfriend, but it’s really not good to be putting him in the situation where he needs to reassure you that he won’t leave you. I can maybe understand doing it every once in a while, but unless he’s giving you a reason to believe he’ll leave you, it’s not healthy for a relationship. I hope that you can find a way to put your insecurities to rest.
I’m sorry that you don’t feel beautiful. I know that feeling very well. The truth is that unless you become ok with yourself, it’s a feeling that you won’t find. True beauty doesn’t come from the outside. It comes from within yourself. It’s in the things you do and the things you say to other people. I’m positive there are things about you that are beautiful, but you have to look for them. I have a suggestion. Challenge yourself to try to remember something you said to someone or something you did for someone that made them happy, or made them feel good in some way. And if you can’t remember any conversations like that, then start having those conversations. Sometimes it’s as simple as just talking to someone who is feeling lonely. Try to put some positive things in your life, rather than focusing on your insecurities.
I hope that something I said can help you in some way. Please come back and share as often as you need to.
Thank you so much Margarita, your words mean to much to me
I’m crying and yes i can do what you say, i’m gonna try to find a way to love myself and find a little of beauty in me.
And i go to terapy one time at week, but i’m on vacations, so is hard to me be away from my boyfriend.
He’s so handsome, he have a lot of girls wanting him and trying to flirt with him and this makes me so vulnerable and insecure with myself.
So again, i want to say thank you so much Margarita, what a beautiful words, thank you, for take a time to read this and give me an answer.
Hope you be ok, happy new year 2020.
Att. Just a little girl triying to fix herself.
@Impala67 I’m glad I could help. I’m glad you see a therapist already. That means you are doing good things for yourself.
I hope you have a great 2020.
My name is Maplesead and I wanted to make something for you as a reminder that your loved and that you matter! I saw your topic on the HeartSupport wall and I can relate to your story. There are days that I feel me great and good, maybe even beautiful and there are days that I hate my body and looks as much as I can. But that doesn’t mean that you need to keep it for yourself. It’s good that you be brave and tell us as the HeartSupport community what’s going on in your mind. Don’t be afraid to share it.
Let me introduce you to the villager of Animal Crossing that I drew. Her name is Ellie and she is a lovely and friendly character. She really wanted to show her emotion and thoughts but is afraid for other people their opinion and that she isn’t good enough for people around her. But one day she tried and saw that people are more kind then she though in her mind. She is a cutiepie and loved, like you!
Impala67, please remember that Ellie is as sweet and beautiful as you and she want to take care of you. She can’t live her wonderful live without you around her and showing your smile. Hold fast, you matter!
Hey Maplesead, thank you for your beautiful words.
Your draw is amazing and so cute, i love it. Ellie is beautiful, is a good reminder to me.
Thank you for take your time to read me and give me an answer.
I’m crying, i really love the history of Ellie.
One day i’m gonna try to my emotions and thoughts and i’ll see that is not so bad outside.
After all, you can’t have people happy for be who are you.
We can with this word, we can keep fighting no matter what, we won’t back down.
Hope you have an amazing 2020, have a great new year.
Att. A girl trying to fight everyday.
I never thought I was good looking. One day my mother showed me a picture she had taken of me, and when I looked at it, honest to God I saw a fairly good looking man! I know that sounds weird, but it worked!! Admittedly, I was a young man (16) but I think it holds for others who are older. Also, I knew a girl in high school who I though was RAVISHINGLY BEAUTIFUL, and, whether she knew it or not, had LOTS of guys who thought she was attractive, but somehow she didn’t think so. I may have been because she was taller than most gals, but, at 6’ 1", I didn’t care! It is my belief that many women fail to realize how beautiful they are.
Being pretty and beautiful is about being a good and caring person inside and showing it to others outside of you. At 18 you’re obsessed with your looks, but looking good is just one part of attraction and zero part of friendship!
Also, by being negative and somewhat paranoid about your boyfriend, you’re likely to be pushing him away. If he is truly tired most of the time, you should go with him to a doctor or specialist and get him diagnosed.
Hey JPG, honestly i knew a lot of girls like the girl that you are talking about and i think that i’m like this girl. My family, friends and other people tell me that i’m beautiful and that i have a good body. Is weird but, sometimes i feel beautiful and sometimes i can’t see any beauty in me, i don’t feel good enough. Is something that i have to work with myself.
And you are right, good history, thank you for sharing and for your time to read me.
Happy to do it. I am sure they are lots of gals out there who are quite lovely, but do not feel it because no one has ever told them so… Got bless
Hey Champagne, thanks. I haven’t think about this, the people always focus in the body and look handsome/beautiful, they forget about being a good person and kind with everyone else.
Yes, i know. It’s a big problem, i’m sure that i’m gonna resolve this.
And thanks for your time for read me and for your good answer.