I’m nothing. I’m worthless. It’s my fault that I can’t stop hurting myself. It’s my fault that the meds aren’t working. It’s my fault that I’m nothing. It’s my fault that my family won’t stop fighting. It’s my fault that I can’t get better. It’s my fault that all these thoughts won’t stop. It’s my fault that I’m like this. I should just not be this. I should just be fine. I should be perfectly fine. I should have no problems with how I am. I should just be fine. I shouldn’t show that I’m hurt. I should just die so that no one has to deal with me. I should just be gone. I should just be better. I should just be fine. I shouldn’t be sad. I should be fine. I’m worthless. I’m nothing. I will always be like this. I will always be broken. I will always just be a burden. I will always be this. I am nothing. I’m will always be nothing. No one knows that I tried to kill myself. No one knows that the only reason I’m still here is because I’m a coward. I’m nothing to them. They only like me because I fake it. I am nothing. I’m a fraud. I’m worthless. I am the worse. I will always be the worse. I am nothing. I am nothing but a worthless piece of shit. I don’t deserve the help I get. I don’t deserve the love I get. I don’t deserve the people around me. They are all better than me. I am worthless. I deserve to feel all the pain of the world. I’m am the worse. I don’t deserve anything. I don’t deserve food. I don’t deserve water. I don’t deserve air. I don’t deserve the space I’m given. I don’t deserve the love. I don’t deserve the help. I don’t deserve anything. I don’t deserve anything but the pain. I hate myself. I hate everything about me. I don’t know why people help me. I don’t deserve it. I deserve to die.
Now my family just fighting and fighting. I can’t do anything to stop them. God it’s all my fault. I’m the worse I only cause pain. Why can’t they just stop. Why can’t they get along. I hate the fighting. I hate all the fighting, Why can’t they just stop, Why can’t they just stop yelling.