I’m scared that i’ll try to kill myself, i’m just terrified to express my emotions thinking that ill get judged, im scared to try and be myself, i just put on this stupid act thats different from me in every way, i just want to shoot myself and get it over with. i dont even have any motivation to get up in the morning, i just do because im forced to, everythings going south, my studies are worsening, more stress is piling on me and any motivation left is now dead. i dont know what to do.
First off I promise you won’t get judge here. Everyone here wants to help you and won’t judge you.
That won’t solve anything. I promise you. It may seem like it will right now but it’ll just end it and actually help you at all. I know it’s tempting but it won’t help. If you feel like you are going to do it please call a hotline or 911 or whatever your emergency number is.
It’s okay for your studies to fall away while you take care of yourself. Motivation is a tricky thing. It’s here one moment and gone the next. I don’t know how I could help you with that but I promise it will get better. I don’t know when but it will because nothing stays the same forever. It sucks that you have so much stress. You need to remember to take time for yourself. When you do it will help you feel less stress and might help with your motivation. I hope things get better for you.
thats what i want to do, i dont give half of a fuck if i end up in a black void for eternity, it sounds better than my situation right now. and why would i talk to people when people caused this bullshit. no one allows me to express my fucking emotions and if i do i get judged and punished, i just want to be in a blank void with my thoughts, where no one judges me for me.
i dont even feel like im taking care of myself, i feel like everyday is a loop and just everything gets worse, i feel like one day im just going to snap and just kill myself. people keep hating me more and more just for being fucking me, i keep to myself and im a quiet person on the outside, but i want to show those people that im more than just a dumbass but if i even try i get punished. people treat me like shit so i feel shameful sharing about my problems in a place where its encouraged and accepted, i think that my problems dont matter, people just treated me like shit, i cant find ONE PLACE where i can share my emotions.
we’re here listening to you.
You can vent all those emotions here and we’ll listen.
I’m so sorry that the people around you are not being receptive to how you feel. Is there a therapist or counselor or unrelated adult you can talk with who will listen?
It sounds like you’re hurting because everything has been bottled up for a long time. I always think of this like a pressure tank. If you let the pressure build and build without releasing any pressure, it will eventually explode. But if you regularly open it a crack and let some of the pressure out, things can normalize and be functional again for a long time.
You can here. We are hear to listen and not judge. I promise you we will listen. We are here for you.
We don’t. We care about you. We want you to be happy. We don’t want you to die. We care and I care. I want you to be okay.
i dont have a therapist or counseller, itll take about a month to set up one psychologist. it hurts because i cant even talk to my parents because im afraid theyll just act like “oh its no problem, its just a phase” im scared of talking to anyone about this, no matter if its friends, family or a random stranger i met on 4chan.
thats the thing, no ones there for me in real life, the only people to actually listen to me are online. well atleast i HAVE people to listen to me, thats something at least.
I’m sorry that there is no one there for you in real life. We are here for but I can see how that might not be enough.
i understand what it’s like to feel scared and alone. fear is one of the worst things to feel and i’m sorry. i get it. it is really helpful to talk though, and ur always welcome to talk here. and people will listen u won’t be judged and it’s nice to have a safe place. ur not alone, i promise.
I’m sorry you feel so alone, even with family around.
But I must point out that sometimes we are feeling so beaten down and afraid that we expect the worst. Have you tried talking to your parents before? Did they dismiss what you were going through? Or is it just a fear you have of what they will say?
We will listen and this is a safe space. We want you to be okay. You’re not alone. We love you and we care about your wellbeing.
well its one way to let the weight off my shoulders, its not as good as it could but you need to work with what you have
it sucks like hell, its nice to talk to someone even if its over the internet. it sorta gives you a new perspective.
i talked to my parents about it and they helped me but i only told them a fraction of the problem because im just scared of what theyll say.
yeah it totally does!! and sometimes that’s all u need u know?
yeah! it doesnt matter if you have the exact answer if you cant see the perspective, it just gives you the answer but no way to understand nor perceive it. sometimes that is all you need to know, emphasis on sometimes
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